Forty-six

Forty-six

Not so sure how 46 actually happened.  One day I was 26, living in London.  Doing things like this.....

Suddenly (okay well I know not suddenly but it's hard to believe that 20 years have passed)

And all this this...these people have made the 20 years such a wonderful journey.  They amaze me everyday.  I really like my kids. They are amazing young people who teach me about myself and life everyday.  They keep me honest and teach me to love unconditionally. They make me laugh, and sometimes cry. They bring me joy and make me realize that they are the best thing I ever did.  And M is my one.  Could not do it without him. I am where I need to be.

And occasionally I still get to do this.

Hmmmm, it had been very long while.....

Long time since I posted anything.  Why?  Dun'no. Will I keep this blog..maybe... let's see where it all takes us.

Well, another year past by, so I need to add my yearly "this is me at.... age". 44 this year.  Not bad, I suppose.

Love of my life--12 years and counting.

 

 

The other loves of my life..... 9 and 6! OMG how is that possible?

 



43

Since I seem to be doing this every year....... me at 43. 



I know I need to ruminate here, as I have in the past, as another year passes.  Let me ruminate on my ruminations and get back with you.

They grow so fast

Why they grow so fast...... 5 and (almost) 8.  They amaze me everyday.

Cabin and creek and smiles

Our little cabin...this has become my happy place. As soon as I see the cabin peeking up over the trees as we drive down the road towards it, all the worries of the day, the stress of the week, the disagreements and struggles as a family just disappear. The weight of my little world is lifted off of me and I breath a sigh of relief. I can feel the stress and struggles of my little ones just fly out the windows. The dog's tail wags quicker, the tone of voices gets sweeter, the smile on M's face gets bigger and brighter. As we unpack the car and open up the house, the kids help in the ways they can and then immediately run to the creek and the dog just runs. It's all a bit chaotic--but it is amazing.

Summer 2012

The summer is zipping by so fast that I have not been able to stop often enough to just breath in the heavy humid hot air or hear the crickets and bullfrogs singing there songs each night.

42

Well, I am 42. This is me at 42.

At the ripe old age of 42, I have finally ( or at least working towards) come to terms with this--who I am.

I have made some decisions:

I am not going to diet ever again--just eat smart but enjoy the cake from time to time.

I am not going to exercise anymore--just get out and move. Move with my kids, move with my love, move at work, move when ever I get a chance--but not beat my self up for not exercising one day or several. I may even belly dance!

I am going to get rid of everything in my closet that doesn't fit. Those items that make me feel bad because I cannot fit into them like I did once upon a time ago. Clothes shouldn't make you feel bad. Keep what fits--buy new if need be. Donate the rest to some one who can use them (My Sister's Place perhaps).

I am going to try something new every week (if possible).

I am going to do something creative every week--even if it is coloring with my daughter or making books again.

I am going to read more--more books, more articles--just more. Even if it is on my phone.

I am going to try new recipes and stop just looking at food blogs and magazine--make those things that seem yummy. I will also involve my kids in the process.

I will smile and laugh more and try really hard to yell and grump less (even when I am grumpy)

I will tell those I love that I love them--everyday!

I will not find the negative in my body but celebrate the wonders of me and my body. I brought two amazing children into this world with this body, I have walked on parts of the Great Wall of China with these legs, I have explored some of the greatest cities and most amazing little towns, I have hiked through the redwood and swam in the Atlantic, Pacific, Indian Oceans, as well as the Mediterranean, Aegean Sea and the North Seas.

That's it for now now.......

There's nothing more beautiful than a woman with adventure and novelty in her eyes.

December

Smile

I absolutely love this boys smile! I smile just thinking about it. He smiles with his entire face and it is so genuine and pure and lovely.

Giving and thanks

Recently read a article by a favorite blogger out there Dig this chick, who I love reading and who's blog I follow more than any other blog out there. (Probably did not know this about me by I really like reading blogs about food and crafts and woman doing the things I am doing/thinking/wish I were doing, etc. I read them as inspiration for life and events but inspiration to write. I don't think I am very good writer and hope to be inspired to ruminate a bit more about my life, my kids, my hopes and dreams--that's why I read them).

Anywho.....the article about GIVING really made me stop and think. I love the idea behind her article. I, too, strive to raise giving and gracious children who appriciate the small random acts of kindness and don't get so wrapped up in the gimme, gimme, gimme that is all around them.

Pumpkin decorating at CDC

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